Honesty time. I'm at a loss. I'm at that point where you just don't know what you want. I have to pitch an idea that I love but I have no idea how to do it. Nothing feels right. I try to funny and it comes off as awkward. Try to be serious but it just gets boring. Creativity is gone and every idea I come up with I just give up on. But I know it shouldn't be this hard. I love the idea and it could definitely work. Just expressing that idea to people is for some reason one of the hardest things I've ever had to do.
My mind is a mess at the moment. A swirling pit of ideas and emotions that I can't express because I think too much. This pitch is important and the other things could be great but if I can't get the words out there I'll never know.
Should probably talk about the pitch. I have this project at college. Digital Lives. We need to pitch an idea for a piece of work that is visual and interactive. My idea is about a guy with social issues who is asked by a therapist to record everyday of his life for 2 months. He comes to realise that technology was his problem. And, if I'm honest, I think it's also mine. See, here, on my blog I can. I can tell you about my idea and how I want it to be no problem. Put me in a room with people looking at me and I freeze. I can't express. I basically can't talk.
Hopefully writing this will help. Clear my mind maybe. I haven't even touched on the other things on my mind but those are probably best kept off of the blog. Little too personal maybe. Who knows. Just wanting to say things and not being able to find the words which leads to missed opportunities and, well, nothing. You know. That idea, that place, that person. Gone because you can't formulate a simple sentence in your mind and express what you want to express.
Feeling distant, distracted, lonely and god knows how many other things because you get so comfortable behind a keyboard that when it comes to talking you act like a child who just got picked out by a teacher to answer a question in a new subject. Stuttering, stammering, sweating, standing there looking around the room while everyone looks back at you with eyes like daggers. And what can you say? What is the only thing that you can say? "I don't know". Then you sit back down and you think about everything you could've said, should've said and would've said if you could only focus on one thing at a time instead of thinking about all of these things that don't matter in the slightest.
This might be sounding melodramatic but it's the truth. The brutal honest truth and thats that. Not sure what else to write. Everything I feel I need to say has been said and thats that. Thanks for reading.
My mind is a mess at the moment. A swirling pit of ideas and emotions that I can't express because I think too much. This pitch is important and the other things could be great but if I can't get the words out there I'll never know.
Should probably talk about the pitch. I have this project at college. Digital Lives. We need to pitch an idea for a piece of work that is visual and interactive. My idea is about a guy with social issues who is asked by a therapist to record everyday of his life for 2 months. He comes to realise that technology was his problem. And, if I'm honest, I think it's also mine. See, here, on my blog I can. I can tell you about my idea and how I want it to be no problem. Put me in a room with people looking at me and I freeze. I can't express. I basically can't talk.
Hopefully writing this will help. Clear my mind maybe. I haven't even touched on the other things on my mind but those are probably best kept off of the blog. Little too personal maybe. Who knows. Just wanting to say things and not being able to find the words which leads to missed opportunities and, well, nothing. You know. That idea, that place, that person. Gone because you can't formulate a simple sentence in your mind and express what you want to express.
Feeling distant, distracted, lonely and god knows how many other things because you get so comfortable behind a keyboard that when it comes to talking you act like a child who just got picked out by a teacher to answer a question in a new subject. Stuttering, stammering, sweating, standing there looking around the room while everyone looks back at you with eyes like daggers. And what can you say? What is the only thing that you can say? "I don't know". Then you sit back down and you think about everything you could've said, should've said and would've said if you could only focus on one thing at a time instead of thinking about all of these things that don't matter in the slightest.
This might be sounding melodramatic but it's the truth. The brutal honest truth and thats that. Not sure what else to write. Everything I feel I need to say has been said and thats that. Thanks for reading.